Dear Bundle of Joy,
Making a baby is the hardest thing I have ever done.
It hurts to hear the commandment "multiply and replenish the Earth". It reminds me that I haven't and I can't... yet. I know its not a punishment from God, but it is hard to wrap my mind around NOT being able to follow a commandment even though we really want to. I know it is the intent of my heart, but it still stings.
Throughout this experience, I have thought about each day as "one day closer":
One day closer to:
-peace
-being filled with hope
-becoming pregnant
-becoming better
-accepting God's timing
-increased faith
However, if I lose my faith in God it could be different.
Once day closer to:
-less peace
-losing hope
-becoming discouraged
-becoming angry with God
-having less faith
-becoming miserable
Trials can yield very different results... it depends on how we react to and respond to the circumstances and whether we utilize the atonement in our life or if we are too proud to do so. Hopefully you can always know that the atonement can and will help you through any trial in your life.
Love,
Mom
On this blog, I write letters to my future child(ren). While some might think that writing to a future child is illogical or crazy, I have found that through writing out my thoughts, I am able to cope with my infertility. It is also a great way to express my feelings regarding my faith in Jesus Christ and knowing that God is the ultimate creator and therefore everything is in His timing. It is a great way to keep a "journal" of sorts for my family and me.
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