Dear Bundles of Joy,
I had another dream last night. Unlike the others, this one was a sad dream...
I had a dream that I lost Baby B. :(
In my dream, I actually felt and held you as you fell out of me (for some reason). You were the size of a small plum. I was devastated and in shock. My dream then skipped to me getting an ultrasound and what I saw on the screen was like a cartoon. Your sac was still showing up but instead of you there was a dotted outline of your body. It was strange, but it felt so real.
I woke up pretty devastated. I'm hoping this was just that... a dream.
Love,
Mom
On this blog, I write letters to my future child(ren). While some might think that writing to a future child is illogical or crazy, I have found that through writing out my thoughts, I am able to cope with my infertility. It is also a great way to express my feelings regarding my faith in Jesus Christ and knowing that God is the ultimate creator and therefore everything is in His timing. It is a great way to keep a "journal" of sorts for my family and me.
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